I am shaking with emotions (and coffee). A lot has gone in the past weeks, and the summer as well. As of November 1st I have been homeless. Not actually. I moved out of my apartment, and now I am spending a few nights at my friend and climbing legend Tom Armstrongs' home. I am also borrowing his truck. My car began leaking copious amounts of coolant two days ago. Low and behold, 5 days before leaving on the road trip my car needs a head gasket. Of course. Murphy's law? A catch-22? Fixing the head gasket is going to cost me 1/4 of my savings! I don't have much of a choice in the matter. Fortunately, I still have enough money for the trip. This hit has the potential to cut the trip short or make it more stressful towards the end.... not having enough money is annoying! On a responsible and adult note, I purchased heath insurance last week. As my friend Jason Conway put it; "Health insurance is the one thing you pay into and don't want to use!" How true is that?
I am excited for the trip, however, at the same time I feel anxious. My car needing the head gasket hasn't helped. Aside from that, I am still nervous. I think I am more nervous for what I am going to do after the trip. I am going to be broke and homeless. I am thinking about returning to Stone Ridge, and spending some time with my mom. Hopefully I will be able to find work, and save enough money to go to Turkey!
As much as I love New Hampshire I think my time here is coming to an end. This summer was tumultuous. I think I am done working in restaurants (or at least around here). The job lacks inspiration, I'm not stimulated by it anymore. 90% of my customers annoy me, I don't find them interesting and they are cheap. I can't, it hurts my soul. Last night, unprompted or provoked a couple at the bar spent 5 minutes forcing their conservative, ignorant and completely insane political opinions down my throat! It took all my restraint to keep from telling them off. They think Obama is a socialist. They said he hasn't done anything he promised and he has put us further in debt. Yeah, like he was handed his presidency on a silver platter. Then they went on to tell me that Obama should have let GM fail. Stupidly I asked, "what about all the GM employees that would be out of a job?" They told me that they would have to fend for themselves... then they said they don't believe in unemployment, so I asked what people should do, and they said if people are starving they should turn to their churches. At that point I walked away. I don't disagree fully, yes, people take advantage of unemployment and welfare. But some people need it! Anyway, those people are insane. Wealthy land owners from Connecticut up for the weekend to shut down their Lake house on Winnipeesaukee.
I've been saying it for a while and it is finally time. After the road trip and hopefully a trip to Turkey I am going to move out west or go to graduate school. Most likely I will get a masters in Mathematics Education. I can't fathom the idea of working all year round. At least not yet. I still need to climb 5.14a!
I go back and forth, this morning I was feeling super excited about the road trip, then I felt anxious. I think things will be better once I am on the road. The road is calming. It is relaxing. Hopefully my car troubles are done. I've put 2000 into that thing this summer. I bought it last year for 4100. Cars are not cheap.
I haven't climbed much in the past week. The weather has been shitty and I am resting for the trip. I hope to send a few 13's in the red and hopefully put down some hard boulder problems. I'd love to do a V10, but I'd settle for some 8's and 9's. I'm excited for the RED! Especially for Chad. He is climbing so well this year. It is going to be a good time!
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